“The Wisdom of Insecurity” by Jack Kornfield

“Security is mostly a superstition.  It does not exist in nature nor do children as a whole experience it.  Avoiding danger is not safer in the long run than outright exposure.  Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.”

– Helen Keller

One day Ajahn Chah held up a beautiful Chinese tea cup, “To me this cup is already broken. Because I know its fate, I can enjoy it fully here and now. And when it’s gone, it’s gone.”    When we understand the truth of uncertainty and relax, we become free.

The broken cup helps us see beyond our illusion of control. When we commit ourselves to raising a child, building a business, creating a work of art, or righting an injustice, some measure of failure as well as success will be ours. This is a fierce teaching. Margaret is an aid worker whose clinic in Kosovo was burned to the ground, yet she began again. She knows that her work is helping people through success and failure. Emilee, who lost her most promising math student to a gang shooting, was broken hearted. But she doesn’t regret having tutored him and now she is tutoring several others in his honor.

We may lose our best piece of pottery in the firing, the charter school we work so hard to create may fold, our start up business may go under, our children may develop problems beyond our control. If we only focus on the results, we will be devastated. But if we know the cup is broken, we can give our best to the process, create what we can and trust the larger process of life itself. We can plan, we can care for, tend and respond. But we cannot control.  Instead we take a breath, and open to what is unfolding, where we are. This is a profound shift, from holding on, to letting go.  As Suzuki Roshi says, “When we understand the truth of impermanence and find our composure in it, there we find ourselves in Nirvana.”

When people asked Ajahn Chah questions about enlightenment or what happens at death or whether meditation would heal their illness, or whether Buddhist teachings could be practiced equally by westerners, he would smile and say “It’s uncertain, isn’t it?” Chögyam Trungpa called this uncertainty “groundlessness.” With the wisdom of uncertainty, Ajahn Chah could simply relax.  Around him was an enormous sense of ease. He didn’t hold his breath or try to manipulate events. He responded to the situation at hand. When a senior western nun left the Buddhist order to become a born again Christian missionary, and then returned to the monastery to try to convert her old friends, many were upset. “How could she do this?” Condused, they asked Ajahn Chah about her. He responded with a laugh, “Maybe she’s right.” With these words, everyone relaxed.  When called for, Ajahn Chah could plan the construction of a great temple or oversee the network of over 100 monasteries started by his monks. When disciplining misbehaving monks, he could be decisive, demanding and stern.  But there was a spaciousness around all these actions, as if he could turn to you a moment later and smile – like a wink – and say, “It’s uncertain, isn’t it?”   He was living proof of the secret of life described in the Bhagavad Gita, “to act well without attachment to the fruits of your actions.”

The trust expressed by Ajahn Chah comes whenever our consciousness rests in the eternal present. “From where I sit,” he said, “nobody comes and no one goes.”  “In the middle way, there is no one who is strong or weak, young or old, no one who is born and no one who dies.  This is the unconditioned. The heart is free.”  The ancient Zen masters call this enlightenment “the trusting mind.” The Zen texts explain how to do so, “To live in Trusting Mind is to be without anxiety about non-perfection.”  The world is ‘imperfect.’ Instead of struggling to perfect the world, we relax, we rest in the uncertainty. Then we can act with compassion and we give our best. Without attachment to the outcome, we bring fearlessness and trust to any circumstances.

When Carl began Buddhist practice, the internet company he worked for was in trouble.  His marriage felt stale.  And he still suffered the effects of growing up with his father’s long-term depression. He looked to meditation training to help him with his anxiety about the future, the insecurity in his marriage, and how often he felt disconnected from himself.

Since childhood Carl had also had a deeply mystical sense of the world. One of the most important moments in his adult life came in a dream about Katie, his youngest daughter.  At age four, Katie was hospitalized for viral meningitis and went into a coma. Carl and his wife spent their days at her bedside. The doctors were cautious about her chances of recovery.  After five weeks of no change and endless worrying, Katie came to Carl in a dream and told him, “Don’t worry Daddy, it’s all ok.”  The next morning as Carl walked into Katie’s room, she opened her eyes and smiled at him. Now she is a healthy fourteen year old.

Carl had glimpsed the truth that there is a grace beyond all our plans.  Learning meditation reawakened this trust in him.  With mindfulness his stress lifted and he began to feel his body and his senses open. In one sitting Carl said his body felt like tall, graceful kelp floating beneath the waves. His feelings of being stuck and anxious transformed into moments of interest, curiosity, appreciation. He became less worried, more present.  More “juicy” he called it. “Letting go of my fears is like removing an overcoat of self.  When thoughts and problems that I can’t solve arise, they don’t stick.  I rest like kelp in the ocean, in the trusting mind.”  Periodically Carl said he forgets this and his insecurity returns. The worrying mind takes hold.   Should he stay in his marriage? Should he continue in an uncertain job? Then he remembers the dream of his daughter and Carl relaxes and trusts the not knowing.  “Every marriage and every job is insecure if we are honest,” he said.

Eight years later, Carl is still in his marriage and still working at a now successful internet company.  His meditation has taught him a trust that is not separate from the insecurity and paradox of life itself.

 

This excerpt is taken from the book, ” “The Wise Heart”

Clinging to anything…….by Adyashanti

—”If, in our heart, we still cling to anything: anger, anxiety, or possessions – we cannot be free.” “The most challenging thing for the spiritual seeker to do is to stop struggling. The human condition is characterized by a constant state of struggle which manifests as conflict, fear, and confusion. These various states of tension, caused by the compulsive and mechanical impulse to struggle, distort our ability to perceive what is true and liberating. What is truly interesting is that the human condition contains within it an unconscious need to struggle. Why? Because by remaining in a state of constant struggle, we maintain the boundaries that create the sense of a separate self, a self who unconsciously defines itself as ‘the one who struggles.’ And even more shocking is the discovery that not only do we need to struggle in order to remain separate, but we want to remain separate – even though it causes so much suffering, fear, and confusion. We want to remain separate because by remaining separate we maintain the sense of being someone different, special, and unique.”

~ Adyashanti

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Mindfulness by Tara Bennett-Goleman

Mindfulness means seeing things as they are, without trying to change them. The point is to dissolve our reactions to disturbing emotions, being careful not to reject the emotion itself.
Tara Bennett-Goleman

“The Flow of the Universe” from Daily Om’s Madisyn Taylor

The Flow of the Universe

BY MADISYN TAYLOR

Many people live their lives struggling against the current while others use the flow like a mighty wind.

The flow of the universe moves through everything. It’s in the rocks that form, get pounded into dust, and are blown away, the sprouting of a summer flower born from a seed planted in the spring, the growth cycle that every human being goes through, and the current that takes us down our life’s paths. When we move with the flow, rather than resisting it, we are riding on the universal current that allows us to flow with life.

Many people live their lives struggling against this current. They try to use force or resistance to will their lives into happening the way they think it should. Others move with this flow like a sailor using the wind, trusting that the universe is taking them exactly where they need to be at all times. This flow is accessible to everyone because it moves through and around us. We are always riding this flow. It’s just a matter of whether we are willing to go with it or resist it. Tapping into the flow is often a matter of letting go of the notion that we need to be in control at all times. The flow is always taking you where you need to go. It’s just a matter of deciding whether you plan on taking the ride or dragging your feet.

Learning to step into the flow can help you feel a connection to a force that is greater than you and is always there to support you. The decision to go with the flow can take courage because you are surrendering the notion that you need to do everything by yourself. Riding the flow of the universe can be effortless, exhilarating, and not like anything that you ever expected. When you are open to being in this flow, you open yourself to possibilities that exist beyond the grasp of your control. As a child, you were naturally swept by the flow. Tears of sadness falling down your face could just as quickly turn to tears of laughter. Just the tiniest wave carrying you forward off the shores of the ocean could carry you into peals of delight. Our souls feel good when we go with the flow of the universe. All we have to do is make the choice to ride its currents.

Adyashanti on Concepts

“When you give yourself this amazing gift of not trying to find yourself within some particular concept or feeling, then the openness expands until your identity becomes more and more the openness itself, rather than some point of reference in the mind called a belief or a particular feeling in the body. The point is not to get rid of thoughts or feelings, but just not to feel located inside of them. Openness has no particular location. It seems to be everywhere. It has room for anything. There can be a thought or no thought. There can be a feeling or no feeling. There can be sounds. There can be silence. Nothing disturbs openness. Nothing disturbs your true nature We only get disturbed when we close ourselves by identifying with a particular point of view, a concept of who I am or who I believe or feel myself to be; we go in opposition against what’s happening. But when we are being our true nature, which is openness, we find that we’re actually not in opposition to anything. Whatever is happening in the openness is perfectly okay, and so we are able to respond to life in a spontaneous and wise way.”

~ Adyashanti from the book “Emptiness Dancing”

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Shifting by Adyashanti

Each time you have a shift into a subtler identity, there’s a freedom and impact of vibration that you need to see so identity can move on to its own liberation.
~ Adyashanti ~

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